No words can answer "Why".

No words can answer "Why".

I dedicate the song below for you to know I'm here.

We all have been struck with the sudden loss of a loved ones death. Their is no answer to why? But that doesn't stop us from asking and waiting for an answer. Even if we were to get an answer to why?  would we still want to hear it - No. 

All we can do is hold our true ones in our hearts. Live our lives making them proud. Raise our children to make them proud of us as our loved ones were of us. Celebrate knowing they were the biggest part of our lives. Live and rejoice because I say this to you my child.

Remember you will feel our touch as we softly pass by. We as your Parents, need you to know that we will never be away from your side. We want you to feel the soft kiss on your cheek, this is for the times you start to feel week. When you feel a breeze that closes in on you. It will be me your Mother or father saying,

"I will forever love you". My child. As I dedicate this song to you my child.

CHRISTINA AGUILERA LYRICS for I Turn To You (onscreen text)

http://youtu.be/gnCtpRsegPI

Written by,

Anna Baty, 11-2-15

"Place your hand upon your heart".

Place your hand upon your heart.

Sometimes death leaves a heartache that no one can heal, Also remember that love leaves a memory no one can steal.

Gods angels are always near to those who are still grieving.When you hear a soft whisper speaking in your ears. It's the angels telling us, Please let your heart rest easy and wipe away your tears.

I know we are always deeply missed! But please remember we left behind our courage and strength, and beautiful words of wisdom. So take the time to use what we left behind, For we will always stand beside you to ease your troubled mind.

Place your hand upon your heart and speak these words with me. One day we will be together. Walking side by side. No more pain or worry no more tears we cry. Till then i need you to pass on the happiness we shared.

Written by,
Anna Baty
5-25-13

Your taunting continued, So suicide I choose.

Your taunting continued, So suicide I choose.

Bullied Teen Amanda Todd, Committed Suicide. Sept-10-2012, She leaves chilling video story by flash cards before she dies. Please watch this video, It's sad because now there listening after her death. Years of being bullied. The School beatings the teens recorded but no one stopped to help. I placed the link below to watch her video.

Please notice the marks and use your insight.If someone just cared we would still have our life. So stop and think next time you call someone, "Fat" or "Pathetic" Or before you make them feel Isolated. Because suicide lives in them while they sleep. It follows them day by day.It stays in there minds as they silently think, No where to run, they cannot escape.There are no pills that we can take. We all want to sleep and never awake.

Darkness please tell us, where do we go? and what should we do? Your taunting continues, So suicide we choose.We no longer wake with pains or regrets, We all walk around because we already met.Today is the day I turned out the the light. I now stand
beside you, I also gave up the fight.

Bullied Teen Amanda Todd's Death Under Investigation - ABC News, http://abcnews.go.com/US/bullied-teen-amanda-todds-death-investigation/story?id=17489034

Anna Baty
11-5-12

Son charged with 74-yr old Mothers Death.

Please read this, Son's sentence
will never make up for the pain
He caused his 74-yr old Mother.

53 yr old, James Owens Sentenced 1 Year on 9-20-12, for involuntary manslaughter and Forgery charges on Death of his 74 yr old Mother. 9-20-12

This story goes to show you some children are insensitive cruel, and greedy. One never knows what to expect from someone you raised and Loved.To take care of you in your time
of need.

James Owens, of Independence,
Mo, pleads Guilty to Elder Abuse.
and a Forgery charge. When his 74-year Mother, Carol Brown had spent several days in a vinyl recliner to which her legs were partly fused to. Carol Brown, died of an apparent stroke last November. Medical personnel found her several days earlier in the home she shared with son James Owens he was her care giver.

Fifty-three-year-old James Owens, of Independence, Mo, was sentenced to a year in jail he was charged with involuntary manslaughter Wednesday after pleading guilty in Jackson County Circuit Court.Also a forgery charge stemmed from the cashing of a Social Security check after his mother Passed.

Family members later told investigators that Owens had complied with his mother’s wish to refuse medical treatment and die at home. "This comment from the Family tells me the rest didn't care either how there family member was cared for".

Credit for story goes to link below.
Son of woman fused to chair pleads to abuse in Jackson County - ky3.com
http://www.ky3.com/news/ky3-son-of-woman-fused-to-chair-pleads-to-abuse-in-jackson-county-20120920,0,357150.story

Anna Baty
9-21-12

Life and Death

I "Loved" you to much.

She looks to the skies, as if for an answer.Why am i lonely and where do i go. He was my life the smile on my face.His touch in the morning made my heart race. Our walks in the sands,
Always holding hands.

Now when i sit in your favorite chair all alone, your presence i feel because your soul feels at home. Hold me again i need to feel your touch. My heart is so empty i loved you to much.

I still remember that brisk and cool day, that day we met and you made my fears go away. your perfect smile, your joyous laugh, the way your eyes lit up when we talked about our past.

Now all i do is wander, in a house we called home.Please tell me my darling what do i do, and where do i go, i feel so confused and so alone. I feel like a lonely spirit that just wants to Fly,
If only i knew that meant, i could always stay by your side.I close my eyes to feel your touch My dear I just want to say, I "Loved" you to much.

Anna Baty
6-29-12

"Beauty" and "Perfection".

Beauty is the Dewdrops that fall off a morning Rose. Beauty is the red glow of its shadow in the morning. A new born baby is what we call Perfection. Now like the Rose we begin to grow not knowing our Beauty will fade.

We hide in a room and close the door. Now we stay hidden as my tears hit the floor, thats when i hear a knock on the door. I hear sounds around me as i head for the door. Thats when i see the wilted "Rose" fall softly to the floor.

" Perfection" and "Beauty"
We will last no more. Death has
come knocking on our door. Now
those who come see me, will see frail skin.
Our "Beauty and Perfection"
Will blow!
Like dust in the Wind.

Anna Baty
6-20-12

Her Strength a Soldiers Wife.

I'm now a single Mother with 2 children to raise, I look for a plan to live through our days. My husband was a man of great virtue, His touch was the balance that beat in my Heart, His love for his family kept him safe in the Dark.

Then the nightmares continued night after night, constantly screaming troops. were in for a fight. The firing of guns and the bombs that he hears, lets him know that they are near. I hold him and tell him I'll keep him safe as we both drift off in a somber sleep.

Suddenly I wake to a cuddling sound, I ran and stumbled where my husband was found. I let out a scream to find no one around that's when I seen the blood all around. Now I come to realize the years in Iraq and the wars before them had taken his life, and ended the tricks they played in his head.

My husband ended his life with bullet to his head. Standing alone and my weakness shows through, I'm a Mother with 2 children now what do I do. My husband had strength and he walked with great pride, but the terrors took over because because he refused to hide.

Telling my children that's why there daddy had died. I stand before this country and say, I was married to a soldier with no weakness he knew, Fought for our Freedom and gave it to you.
I stand at his grave with tears on my face, I miss and love you, and I'm never that far, Remember my husband your my forever, "Shinning Star".

Anna Baty
4-26-12

The Disease

It watches us while we sleep.
Following us day by day.
Stays in our minds as we silently think,
No where to run it does not escape.
The pills they feed me i no longer take.
I want to sleep and never wake.
Darkness please tell me, where do i go?
Please tell me my mind  how to let go.
This disease its a mad aggression,
it goes by a name it's called Depression.
I wake up no more with pains or regrets,
we all walk around as if we all met.
Today is the day there is no more Light,
Were all together we gave up our Fight.

Do you know where your "Teen" is?.

Do you know where your "Teen" is?.

This is an on going problem. "Teenage Drinking"
We have meetings after meetings to try and stop the source of "Who" and where the Liquor comes from.
Well the way I see it parties are being planned every night. The message is texted at school from a friend passed on and on.
I believe in today's world some parents are to busy working. Then when they get home there tired and don't really pay much attention when asked, Mom Amy wants me to stay the night to study our Social Studies test together do you care.
Mom replies no go ahead and I'll see you tomorrow night. Now after supper is done and dishes are washed you get time for a hot bath, Just soaking up some me time.
Then as your headed to bed, you hear a knock on the door at 11 p.m..
Well wonder who that could be. Two policemen standing at your door.

Mrs.Sparks are you the mother of Heather Sparks, Yes sir I am. Well her and her friend Amy was at a party drinking, Then on there way home they hit another vehicle head on, I'm sorry to say they both died, along with a 2 year old child and father in the vehicle they hit.

Falling down to me knees all I kept saying was How? could this have happened she never drank.

Now I spend my days asking myself why?. I should have talked with her, spent more time paying attention to what she was doing and I never took the time now she's gone and I can't makeup for what I should have done.

Parents spend the time with your children see what there doing don't just assume you know. We as parents must keep our children safe and be there.
Checking on your child's activities does not make you a bad "Parent" it just shows you care.
Anna Baty, 4-5-12

Her Raging Fury

I wrote this for all the Family's that keep asking Why.

I  hear her rumble as she blows.
What sparks her fury nobody knows.
They say her path it has no course,
and her strength is called her force.

She snaps whatever stands in her way.
Taking innocent victims everyday.
She means no harm its part of her charm.
She has a message for all to read,
maybe then you'll understand me.

You cannot see me when i start,
tearing your towns all apart.
You can run but cannot hide,
my path is measured a mile wide.

I keeps no time but loves my nights.
My reason being your world sleeps at night.
You question my motives and try to ask why,
I'm a uncontrollable women,
who splits up the sky.

Sometimes my Beauty it spins with a twirl.
My name is "Mother Nature" and this is my World.

Attachments

Her Fury

Restless Soul.

I'm a restless soul waiting to soar high above the clouds
i want to see the world.
Do i like what i see and what will i be.
Like a restless Dove she follows her dreams,
I wander through life so aimlessly.
I decided i just want to be me.

I go my own path to see where i go
my dreams no more shattered i call
them my own.
The hurt from the world it causes me pain.
I feel to restricted my minds going insane.
So now i fly higher trying not to be seen.
For my soul will be happy and my Life will
be Free.

 

I just want to Fly, To escape from the world.

The Disease

It watches us while we sleep,
Following us day by day.
Stays in our minds as we silently think,
No where to run it does not escape.
The pills they feed me i no longer take.
I want to sleep and never awake.

Darkness please tell me, where do i go?
Please tell me my mind  how to let go.
This disease it a mad aggression, It
goes by a name it's called Depression.

I wake up no more with pains or regrets,
we all walk around as if we all met.
Today is the day i turned off the Light.

I'm still all alone i gave up my Fight.

I've Got a Secret

If i came to you with a secret , What would you do?.
Yes i have Cancer or maybe im Gay.
Ive been sleeping around on my husband i have
been since mid May. Maybe i just want to tell you
i will kill myself Today. Now that ive told you my secret
who will you tell ? and what will you do ?.
Would you tell my Husband of 15 years Married.
Maybe his wife that is bed ridden with a disease.
Would you tell my Son and Daughter the truth.
That the secret i told you was meant for me and you.
I was hurting inside and wanted to die because
i told my Friends secret and found out it they
were just Lies.
Now if these are true and i only told you , now
tell me my best Friend What will you Do ?.
How can we expect others to keep our secret
if we have not been able to keep it to ourselves.
I believe if the secret means Death and your there
to console, the secret should be told to our Families
thats Close.

Lost Family's

Never underestimate the power of family.Sometimes it's just a small gathering around a camp fire.The stories we share about old and new times are the stories we can share with the next generation to laugh and cry with.This would be a sad world without the Presents of Family.

Now tell me why it seems like  family gets together only for a funeral. Is it because we choose to go our own way or theres not enough hours in a day.They say death brings a Family closer now all i see is distance that can't be repaired.Then when the time comes for Family reuions you often hear people say.

Who are you?.

Why did we never meet ? 

Answer is none of us took the time. We also as family have built a wall that keeps us at a distance.

  

My life is complete with the Love and Laughter i share with my family even at a gathering for a funeral to me thats called support.To me as a Mother,Wife, Grandmother, Family is what holds the key to our Future so i say know your Family, there always a part of you.They are the Keys to our Past ,

The stories for our next Generations.

My Children Never Doubt

There are times in my Life where i doubt alot of things from my Past and Future.
I love my children but inside myself is a place where I live all alone.
There are times when i wanted to run away.
So i need my children to know and treasure the values
i have always instilled upon them.
I will consider my life has been worth living
and they have always been my Destiny.

 So i want to say to them, For all the times i didnt listen.
" My ears will always hear you"
If there was a time i didnt Hug you.
" My arms are always open for you "
If there ever was a time i didnt tell you i Love you.
 "I Loved you then, i still Love you Forever"
A Mothers Love should never be challenged
 for her Childrens or by her Children.

So my Children please always remember this.
I as your Mother will always be with you.
I will be the whisper you hear in the dead of the night.
I will be the hug you feel from a gust of wind.
I will be the sun shinning on your face
to always make you smile.

Remember my Children.
I as your Mother live always inside your laughter
and to catch all your teardrops, nothing on earth can
separate you from me.
Not time, not space not even death!
Love you Forever "Mom"

Why are you here?

I sometimes question our presence here on earth and say.What is Life if you just have Death?  Well i pondered on this for awhile and here is what i have to say.

Take the time to be a child when you can, Be a daughter or son while you can .Be a mother or father while you can and grandparents whenyou can .What this means to me is take the time to call your son, daughter, mother and father and grandparents and ask them how there doing let them know you are here. Tell them thanks for being there for you.Because there is no greater love then family.The time you spend with them is the only time you get.Take the time while you can because to me that is what my presence on earth is for my Family.